I’ve been hearing about Lisa-Jo’s Five Minute Friday for over a month now, since I started following her on Twitter. But have yet to get brave enough to join in. But with today’s prompt being LONELY I felt like I couldn’t NOT join in. The rules are to write for 5 minutes, unedited, so here goes.
As a young girl I never thought that the word LONELY would describe my time as a stay at home mom. Words that I thought would describe the experience:
It was always my dream to be a stay at home Mom. I guess I never considered the fact that it’s a stay at HOME kind of job and the fact that HOME, even when it’s YOUR HOME, can get claustrophobic.
And so I find myself here. With a four year old and an almost two year old. At HOME almost every day and very rarely ALONE.
And yet, I am so lonely.
It’s amazing how being a Mom can be so wonderful and yet so isolating.
I wouldn’t trade this season with my kiddo’s for anything. I am so thankful to be their Mom. And so overwhelmingly grateful that I get to stay home with them.
But some days….
I just want to get out and meet a friend for lunch without it revolving around nap times.
I want to be able to run with my husband in the morning without constantly checking the monitor to make sure the kids are ok.
I want to be able to text with someone and not be asked constantly what I (or the other person) is saying.
I want to be able to not edit everything I say to omit worry or fear or tiredness or crankiness (yikes) out of my speech because of the little ears hearing.
I just want a second ALONE.
And that’s the crux of being a Mom. Probably any Mom but I only have experience being a stay at home one so I don’t know even half of the troubles that a working out of the home Mom faces.
It amazes me that I can be lonely and yet never alone. It’s a good thing that I can talk to God any time of the day regardless of company otherwise I might be even crazier than I already am.
I wonder if anyone else feels like this. Surely this can’t be just me.
Kind of freeing to write like that. Maybe I’ll join the party more often. Thanks Lisa-Jo for having me!